Like REALLY?

I have honestly gotten to the point where, I've had enough of fucking accusations. I'm constantly being accused of things I have NOT done, and people judge me for that. I know I shouldn't care what people think of me because I honestly whole hearted-ly don't but it just bothers me how people could NOT know me and just because they've heard stuff they'll automatically label me. I do that sometimes why lie, but I try not to. Just because I've heard that you "talk shit" and wanted to "kill yourself" doesn't mean I'll believe that. Lol like let's be honest here. I've had moments where I've fucked up, I'll admit that. But you can't sit there and hold it against me forever. Like you have to move on and not hold a grudge. I obviously haven't and I actually HAVE a reason to. Like what do you gain out of accusing me of all the shit I've "supposedly" done? Do you feel happy that I'm getting called "fake, hoe, slut, bitch, stupid" ? I mean if that's how the game is I have plenty of shit to say. But why start drama seriously? WHY? You DON'T know me, you've ONLY HEARD ABOUT ME, you've NEVER MET ME. Do you really have a right to talk shit about me? NO. So stop sit your ass down, and next time think before you speak.

Proven Wrong....

Two quotes that get to me... “F A I T H….There is faith….but it only takes you so far, because once you’re there…it’s up to you to make it happen.” “I’m gonna make a change…for once in my life…It’s gonna feel real good, Gonna make a difference…gonna make it right.”- Michael Jackson (R.I.P) -------------------------- So yesterday I was in my room just thinking about everything in general..mostly about a test I took back in June this year. I had gotten a letter saying really nothing about passing or failing it….just about signing up for school again. After all the crap I’d heard from some of my family members about how stupid I “am” assuming that the letter ment that I had failed the test, I just started to break down simply because I thought they were right..I did have hope that maybe I passed but once I saw that letter all the hope I had was pretty much GONE…..so after ballin my eyes out the whole day I told myself what ever happens is for a reason if you fail take it as an expirience that you never want to reach again. I prayed that I had not failed this test…so much pressure on me coming from everywhere its really overwhelming and listening to all these sad songs didn’t help me or my mood and thoughts…So next morning I decided to call my best friend and talk to her maybe she could calm me down…while we were talking I made a promise to her saying if I passed the test I’d sing Man In The Mirror by Michael Jackson (R.I.P) and if I failed I’d sing They don’t really care about us also by Michael Jackson….So that was that…….after waiting for almost 2 months..I get the results….saying….. I P A S S E D At that instant I remember all my aunts and uncles who said to my parents “Marii ain’t gonna be nobody..she ain’t gonna get no where..Dancing and singing is all she can do!…But she ain’t smart in school she never was!” and just thank them in my head cause their the people that made me push my limit 100% times harder..Not only did I prove to them but I proved to myself that if I set my mind to do something and want it soo bad and don’t give up I can do it! After all this that I went thru I realized to NEVER doubt myself in anyway possible..I proving it day by day. I didn’t think I’d be as far as I am now but I’m doing it I’m doing what I said I was gonna do in the first place which was school… Just goes to show anyone can achive their goals and if you achieve your goals try and follow your dreams! In my head now I have a whole nother propesctive and its shocking how one thing can make a big diffrence in someone’s life..Therefore what I’m trying to say is.. ANYONE CAN ACHIEVE THEIR GOALS IF YOU JUST TRY HARD ENOUGH IT PAYS OFF.. I’m proving to yall and if you guys don’t believe me then maybe you should try it. I’m LIVING THE DREAM “If you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change.”-Michael Jackson (R.I.P) LOVE N SUPPORT, ♥MARICARM3N

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Life Quote from Mr.Michael Jackson Himself..

"Michael would you like to be buried in one of these things?...No I don't want to be buried....Then Michael what do you want to happen? I want to live forever." -Michael Jackson just thought I'd post it. I was watching "Life with Michael Jackson" and he actually said that so it kinda stuck with me since I watched it iono why. But in the whole documentary I think Bashar or whatever his name is...(no offense) try'd making him look bad iono probably it's jux me. Anyways wow I am one of the founders of CoAST iNVASiON CrU a NEW INTERNATIONAL CREW! Can ya'll believe that!!? I can't lol so far it's going pretty good already have some gigs here in Tx haha lol! MOVING ON HERE....lol.....Dude lately everyone's been dying I'm being serious here not trying to be funny so don't laugh cuz its NOT funny..but forreal I didn't think so many deaths could happen in a certain period of time hella akward...So I was going today to go pick up my ticket to leave to Mexico at the airlines but guess what!? THEY TOLD ME I HADN'T BOOKED MY FLIGHT THERE FOR I DIDN'T GET A TICKET!! so my reaction was WHAT THE FAACK ARE YOU FAACKIN KIDDIN ME!!! I BOOKED THIS SINCE LAST SATURDAY AND YOUR STILL TELLIN ME I DIDN'T DO IT!!! Oh my gosh guys I was hella mad and it was amazingly crowded in there too I felt Closterphobic haha is that how you spell it?..iono.Anyways any one hear about ABDC SEASON 4?....Supposedly it's gonna be good but iono...people say its set up...AGAIN...but I'm starting to think its true...well more like I know its true. Oh well I'm still gonna watch it atleast it'll gimme somethin to watch every sunday NOW! haha lol Gotta go People once again THANK YALL FOR ALL THE LOVE ON TWITTER!! Shoutouts To MY FOLLOWERS! I ♥ YOU GUYS!! and Thank you for reading my blog!! Peace Love N Support..Always, ♥MARICARM3N

R.I.P Michael Jackson 1958-2009

So I went to my room to sit down cause I had finished my food and had cleaned the table it was kinda weird though cause usually after eatin dinner my fam n me are usually together but this time for some reason I decided to go to my room so I grabbed my journal's,phone,pen like I said unsual for me to go straight after dinner to my room so I grabbed the remote control and I had it on channel MSNBC akward.....next thing you know I look up to see UCLA Medical Center in L.A at the bottom of the screen saying...."BREAKING NEWS: Michael Jackson found in his Los Angeles home unconsious and not breathing"....I said what the fuck?...so I turn up the volume to only hear the news channel talking about MJ so I figured...Oh man cmon leave that poor man alone!I honestly thought they were lying....25 minutes later once again "BREAKING NEWS: Michael Jackson in a coma".....I said what's wrong with the damn channel but honestly in my head I was thinking he'll probably make it out of the coma...then at 3:15pm "BREAKING NEWS: Michael Jackson pronounced Dead"...my heart dropped I looked up and said What?..No that can't be true....Only to find out and hour later that it had been confirmed Michael Jackson was Dead due to Cardiac Arrest....I couldn't believe it I called my brother and told him if he had heard the news about MJ he told me no what are you talking about?..I said Gordo he's dead! my brother didn't believe me so I told him turn to CNN or MSNBC or FOX or MTV and he saw....Honestly I thought this is a joke they have to be kidding me...but I guess....not I'm deeply saddened at the fact that my inspiration as a dancer and a singer is gone I truely looked up to him and I mean in the morning I was listening to Billie Jean in the car only to come home to find out he's dead not right....I just wanted to say SORRY TO THE JACKSON'S FOR THE TERRIBLE LOSS HE WILL TRUELY BE MISSED I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO HIS TOUR BUT MAY HE REST IN PEACE. WE LOVE YOU MJ we know your in a better place now and just dance your way to the top of heaven..thanks for all the memories. REST IN PEACE MICHAEL JACKSON 1958-2009 LOVE N SUPPORT, ♥Maricarmen

ver expected this man i feel like crying

Omg Michael Jacksons dead i cant fuckin believe started watching the news around 2pm found hes dead at 4pm wow cant believe hes dead its hella shockin ne